Some truce with physics

Today God told me He/She/They was writing a book
it was for Her, for when She arrives, and I asked God,
that She not know extreme suffering first hand
of course, God swore She must know of the ages,
and what women have had to endure, still endure,
and that even though the time had come for Him/Her/Them,
it of course wouldn’t mean men would stop assaulting

I could see this would be true, nothing has ever changed,
but I asked God not to make Her suffer just to know it,
God reluctantly agreed not to make Her suffer too much

Then I could see, She would not be born in my time,
I would not get to see God arrive on Earth myself,
I was very sad. I would do anything to see God intervene
I cried a little, and I asked God to make sure She knew me,
that She knew I exists, and about our relationship,
God agreed, and said She would know of my writing,
and of my suffering, I wondered how She would see me

The God with no religion female “messiah” will arrive
I will not live to see it, the world is not yet ready
though the world will never be sufficiently ready
I hope it is not just that She will learn that I existed,
but that we can meet in some form of an “afterlife”
some truce with physics, some doorway to rest in
I hope She is happy with the way that I’ve changed
and that She sees my lifetime of suffering for what it was

I asked if it was okay that I share this about Her
God seemed unconcerned, focused on writing Her book