Most recent books posted to Internet Archive
These are just four of the most recent books posted to Internet Archive. Internet Archive does not show the number of times they have been downloaded, but it does show the number of times they have been read, which I have always felt was not fair. It has to have been read from start to finish within Internet Archive’s platform. Though all my other books have read counts, these have not, which makes sense to me. Why read through Internet Archive, which is not the most easy on the eyes, when you can just download it as a PDF and upload to you preferred eReader.
That being said, these last few months have seen a dramatic increase in global traffic, which was already rather high. It is odd how small my read counts on Internet Archive are. For those of you who do read on Internet Archive, I would love if you would help me by reading these at your preferred time of convenience. I know those numbers are probably all that potential publishers look at that not international reputation or ability. I know they most likely only see my disability. Not me despite my disability. I had to go through the systems with publishers after my master’s thesis. I know most of them do not really pay attention. I promise you that is not bitterness talking. Publishers really do not pay attention.
Hemorrhaging And Goats In Auspicious Fields Of Unremarkable Passing Daylight
The Diaspora Of Moonlight Interposed
Holding For Sailor-Smiths’s Songs
This recent poem was about publishers, but also about the universal agreement between the thousands and thousands of regular readers who love to read my poetry, but do not do anything to help me have an honest career doing it. With my disability, in many European countries I would not have to work, but in ‘Merica I have been forced to work this whole time. I have been living with this disability my entire adult life, which has been over 28 years now. I have been writing poetry for over 35 years. Yes, capitalism and the exhaustion of working exasperates symptoms. I believe I have paid my dues. My working life has lasted over 30 years. I cannot express how tired I am and how this juggling act of balancing symptoms and work keep going. I am tired. So tired.
I am not posting another book to Internet Archive until those numbers look better, no matter how long that takes or how long the next book will be. Books of poetry should be longer than chapbooks, but still not too long, at least that is my preference. Especially given this platform. I may have to end of dividing to more than one book. We will see that happens.